The (Un)wanted Wanted baby, have you met unwanted baby? In the valley of my ribs, did you see the unmarked grave? What do scars look like inside— purple keloids bulged out in the shape of swollen lips? Do they scream, whisper, bleed out the music of my heartbeat? Healing is slower inside, in utero a minute equals lifetimes. Forgive my skeletons. They don't clean up for company. Don't speak to them. I thought no one would find my mistakes buried so deep inside but then you arrived. Wanted baby, forgive the high risk of my body. Unwanted baby, Are you waiting to latch onto a soul? Make your way out the birth canal a forever shadow. Waiting for the portal to reopen—a second chance at something, when I’m not 18 with nothing. Wanted baby, Will you know? Will you fear me, hate me when you’re born? Do I feed it with the same candle I light for grandmother? This is uncharted lineage out of order. There aren’t any scrolls on the ethos of the unborn/ the unwanted—I can’t consult the elders there isn’t ritual for this. Still, I wouldn’t change a thing— it’s my second chance at something now that I’m not 18 with nothing.
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